Random Musings...

You know...

2005-06-09T08:52:00.000-05:00

I don't care if you read it or not... If I want to go off about you or whomever, I'm just going to. So there!!!

You read my blog????

2005-06-09T08:13:00.000-05:00

Yeah YOU?? YOU?? How in the hell did you find it? And more than that... why are you even still talking to me??

LOL!!!

Love it! Just don't get caught ...

2005-06-08T10:33:00.000-05:00

DALLAS -- A new line of greeting cards could help fan the flames of infidelity.

The Secret Lover Collection, created by Cathy Gallagher of Bethesda, Md., is made for those involved in an illicit affair, a niche she considers long ignored.

The collection, which will be available this month, speaks to the uniqueness of such relationships, giving lovers the opportunity to recognize holidays, birthdays, anniversaries, apologies, hookups and breakups.

One holiday card reads, "As we each celebrate with our families, I will be thinking of you." Another card laments: "I used to look forward to the weekends, but since we met, they seem like an eternity."

"These are for people who are in love affairs," said Gallagher, who finds inspiration in movies, songs and people she knows. "These are not sex cards. Those have been done."

Relationships...

2005-06-07T12:48:00.000-05:00

The thing that sucks about being in a serious relationship is that when something bad happens to the person you love, it also happens to you. I think its possible that you feel every bit as bad as the individual the "shit" happens to. On the other hand, I suppose its nice to love someone so much as that you are able to experience those feelings. I guess it just sort of shows how much you do love them. Man I feel like shit right now!!! I just wanna cry for him.

Feeling bad...

2005-06-07T12:36:00.000-05:00

I'm not sure I've ever felt so bad for someone as I feel for my boyfriend right now.

My boyfriend is probably the only person I know - at least in my age group - who is truly good at what he does. In fact, he's downright awesome at it.

Anyway, he has a new boss in a position in which he would have been qualified for if he had applied for the job - which he did not - because its not the career path he wants. This woman is a royal bitch. She is out to sabatoge everyone so she can have people from her old "location" come work where she is now. She is just downright awful.

She had not really done anything in regards to my boyfriend until today. So far she has managed to run off several long-time employees and get others fired. So today she started on him. Its so not cool and its utter bullshit. I mean, like I said, he's awesome at what he does. And the people higher up know he is cause they send him around for training at other places. On top of this, he has been offered jobs all over the country from within his company because he does such a great job when he does this onsite training. He has not taken any yet because his mom had cancer and he did not want to be away should something happen to her. She's doing better now though so leaving wouldn't be out of the question now.

So for the meantime he is going to see what he can work out by working with the higher ups to see if they can get their differences ironed out and if they can't, I guess he is going to start looking for another job. He's just sick about this and so am I. I just feel so truly horrible about this cause he is the last person in the world who deserves this!!!

Know what??

2005-06-07T10:48:00.000-05:00

You and that fucking moo cow deserve eachother!

Awesome!!!

2005-06-06T12:46:00.000-05:00

and very VERY true!! This is the story of my bloglife I would say. I am very very very sanitized here compared to how I used to be. Sometimes I miss my old blog ...

LOVE this song!

2005-06-06T12:38:00.000-05:00

Gretchen Wilson - Homewrecker Lyrics

Well you're a real hot cookie with a new hairdo
Your high heel boots and your credit card
Long legs and a mini skirt
Yeah you know what works and you work it hard
You smile like such a lady innocent and sweet
You drive the men folk crazy,
But any girl can see
You're just a

[CHORUS]
Homewrecker
I know what you're doin'
You think you're gonna ruin what I got, But you're not
Yeah you little go getter
I'll teach you a lesson
If you get to messin' with my man
You don't stand a chance
No, you're just a homewrecker

I'm sure you waited for a long, long time
To find a man like mine
But honey you're too late
So before you go and make your move
Maybe me and you should get a few things straight
There's two ways we can do this
I'll let you decide
You can take it somewhere else or we can take it outside you
little
[REPEAT CHORUS]

Now honey I'm a Christian, But if you keep it up
I'm gonna go to kickin' your pretty little butt
Is that clear ebough yeah, you little
[Repeat Chorus]

Are you kidding me?

2005-06-03T15:30:00.000-05:00

This is why I am not a conservative...

Stuff like this makes me want to slit my wrists. Get a fucking life!!

I hate academics, I work with academics on a daily basis - some of the biggest, no common sensed idiots I have ever had the pleasure of "meeting" and add on the right-wing agenda and you've got all kinds of fun!!!

BLAH!!!

So many many many things to muse about today...

2005-06-03T15:23:00.000-05:00

... but I'll only mention one ...

Happy 6-month anniversary, baby!

: )

You...

2005-06-02T14:26:00.000-05:00

I still miss you...

You make me laugh ...

I miss you...

2005-06-01T09:55:00.000-05:00

It's true... : (

Indy 500

2005-05-31T10:35:00.000-05:00

Danica - you rock!!!!!!!!!

No... more like "ESP"

2005-05-27T13:42:00.000-05:00

I was just in such a funk yesterday (see yesterday's posting), just feeling all discontent and just blah... Well, I think what was actually going on was that I felt like something was wrong but didn't know what it was. Well... on my way home I figured it out.

I left work a bit early cause I wanted to go workout and if you get to the place later than say 5:30 you can just forget about getting a machine for a while! So I left around 4, went to the el stop and ended up having to wait like 25 minutes for my train to come! So finally got on the train and it was having all kinds of mechanical problems. Kept stopping and standing, the conductor had to get off several times and check things out. Took me forever to get home. I bet I could have gotten to my boyfriend's place in the burbs quicker than that.

So anyway, one stop before my stop it just sort of hit me ... "Oh my god, I forgot my keys, I am locked out of my apartment!" I don't know why it struck me so I started madly going thru my bag and no keys. So I'm like freaking out. My boyfriend has my spare key and, of course, he's out of town on business this week!!! So then I thought, wait a minute, I do have a key with me cause I always keep one sort of hidden in the side of my purse so I have one with me just in case. Well, that didn't pan out either cause I had switched purses this past weekend for something more casual and summery and, of course, didn't put my key in it! Auugghh!! So like I said, freaking out. So I thought well, I'm going to just call my sister and see if I can come over and crash at her place cause I'm not going to call the landlord and pay the $125 lockout fee! ($125 when every other place I have ever lived is $30 at most!!) So this would have been easy enough except 1) for like the first time in months I forgot to take my cell phone to work; yep, I think it was just one of those days! and 2) I knew my sister was out with friends after work and no idea of where they were or when they would be back.

The curse of the modern age is that everything is so convenient right down to saving people's phone numbers on your cell and not having to remember them anymore! Well, this is me. I think the only numbers I know by heart anymore are my parents, my grandparents, and a few friends' parents back home when I used to call my friends years and years ago. Kind of stupid, right? So... I had to call information to get my sister's number. Problem was, pay phones are few and far between these days. The first two I found didn't work and the third one didn't work to call information so I had to call the operator and charge my calls to information on a credit card!! Anyway, I thought maybe my sister's roommate would be there but no such luck so I left them a message saying I wasn't sure what I was going to do or where I was going to go but I would call them later. Then I tried calling my mom (although I didn't really want to) to get my sister's cell phone number. Mom didn't answer and I didn't leave her a message. Then I had to call information of where my boyfriend was working cause I really just wanted to cry to him. Got thru to the hotel but he wasn't in his room so I left this long weepy message for him.

So here I am just roaming around Chicago trying to decide what to do. I was getting kind of hungry so went to Burger King and had some dinner and just sort of hung for a while. I wanted to waste some more time to allow everyone to get home so I took a walk to Walgreen's to pick up some contact solution. I figured no matter where I ended up staying that was really the only thing I was lacking that I needed cause I actually had clean clothes with me because of my plan to go workout. So after that walked back to the payphone. Tried to call my boyfriend again and still no answer. By this time I had calmed down a lot because I had decided if I couldn't locate my sis worst case was I could probably take the train out to my boyfriend's place and as long as his roommate was there I could walk over there and just stay in my boyfriend's room that night. It would have been kind of weird but I was running out of options. So when it was a no-go with talking to him I decided to walk home and just sit outside on my deck and try and waste more time. I got there, grabbed my mail when I heard someone behind me call my name. It was my sister and she had driven over cause she had gotten my message - thank god!! She had decided not to stay out as long with her friends as she had planned so good....

So just went back to her place, watched TV, crashed on her couch, quick shower this morning, clean shirt and to work a little bit early. So now my plans are to take off work a little early today, around 3ish, catch the train to my boyfriend's work, hang there for a while cause he has some stuff to do and then we will drive to my place so he can let me in and I can pack up all of the stuff I need for our weekend away. Then we'll just go down to his place for the night. Then maybe I can finally relax!!!!

He's a sweetheart for going out of his way for me. He was really worried about me when I finally was able to reach him. He said that he was just going to come home last night when he technically wasn't done. Would have been nice of him to do but I'm glad he didn't have to end up doing that. Would have hated to get him in trouble but I know he would have thought it was worth it.

I'm sure from now on I'm going to be super paranoid about keys and phone but at least I won't get in this jam again!!

PMS

2005-05-26T12:50:00.000-05:00

Man it is just one of those days!

The latest

2005-05-25T12:22:00.000-05:00

So last night I met up with my sister for an early birthday dinner with her. Her birthday is May 31 but I will be out of town (visiting our parents and going to the Indy 500) and then she has to go to San Francisco for business. So we did it a little early this year. Anyway, gave her her gift which was the DVD's of Season 6 "Sex In The City" and this perfume she wanted. She liked both things. Then we headed out for dinner at Joey's Brickhouse - great food!! They are also known for their flavored Long Island ice teas which were just awesome. 24 ounces so I could only drink one ; ) Then we went to this place called Anthony's for Italian ice which was also good. After that went back to her place for a while and then I called it a night. Went home and watched "Rob and Amber Get Married" and I am embarrassed to say that I teared up a couple of times - LOL!

Since U Been Gone...

2005-05-24T12:08:00.000-05:00

Today is a very important day in the "History of Me". Today is the one-year anniversary of me calling up my mom and telling her it was over with me and my ex. Long long story that I don't want to get into but... I suffered thru the next month with him trying to get back together for whatever reason and eventually realizing it was pointless. I'll post on that in the future but still, today is an important day.

And, by the way, I love that Kelly Clarkson song and I posted the title there as my subject line but you know, it does remind me of someone in my past but not particularly this ex. Hmmm... wonder who?! ; )

Cool!

2005-05-24T11:32:00.000-05:00

I wrote the author of this story I found on the net and he actually wrote back!! : ) (Yikes! It's even a Canadian website!)

Hi Mxxxxxx.
Thanks for the email and the kind words.
Like you, I would love to see the White Sox make it to the World Series.
Al Maki

From: Mxxxxxx [mailto:mxxxxxxx@xxxx.com]
Sent: Tue 5/24/2005 10:40 AM
To: Maki, Allan
Subject: White Sox could use a good curse

LOVE your column today! One of the most entertaining I have read in awhile!

Go SOX!!

- Mxxxxxx

Proof

2005-05-23T15:07:00.000-05:00

Expressionless Girl is REAL!!!

Tag, you're it!!

2005-05-23T12:57:00.000-05:00

I've been tagged...

Kelwhy got me and so I'm tagging...

Erik
Swoll
Connor
Flores
Monticello1
Ryo Fujiwara

No Tagbacks!!

To the mocking Cubs fans at yesterday's Cubs-Sox game...

2005-05-23T08:40:00.000-05:00

Especially the two fools in our section at the end of the aisle... Yeah, it was super funny of you to mock our Paul-ee Paul-ee cheer when you guys did something well or we got an out. Ha ha! How very clever of you. Just remember one thing, we will still be doing that cheer come October while ya'll are home watching Survivor 23.

Thanks a bunch! Enjoy the season and your sink into the abyss.

Darth Vader ain't so scary anymore ...

2005-05-20T13:44:00.000-05:00

... now that I know he did the whole thing for a chick!!

Shah... my dad told me this years ago... this is not news!!

2005-05-19T12:54:00.000-05:00

Good guys wear .... Red??

Dad would say, case and point...

Indiana Hoosiers basketball

His hometown Carlisle Indians, back in the day

AJ Foyt used to always drive a red car (coyote orange!)

And, despite what he might say, my dad was a bit of a St. Louis Cardinals fan back in the 80s so...

Well .... it could be worse ....

2005-05-18T12:36:00.000-05:00

This copied today to me from one of my friends to her ex-boyfriend (and yikes! she copied his mom on it too):

"I have tried to be your friend, and that was my mistake. I wish you and your family nothing but happiness. Good luck with your job search and trying to make something of your life.
I wish to no longer hear from you, either via telephone, e-mail, or even in person. I have notified building security and my employer of everything that has transpired, since the night you tried to pound in my door. Security has a picture of you, as well as your home address, phone numbers & e-mail address. If you continue to call me, I will go to the police here in Chicago, as well as in Brookfield, and even in Burr Ridge, to file a report for phone harassment. If you show up here, you'll be arrested for trespassing."

Very cool...

2005-05-17T13:44:00.000-05:00

You can now get Amber Alerts on your cell phone. I went ahead and signed up for this. Cool service which might allow us to help someone out. Can't hurt especially if you have a package on your cell phone for unlimited text messages!

Have you ever noticed...

2005-05-17T13:18:00.000-05:00

... that Starbucks no longer has the little bottles of flavored powders, etc. that you can put in your own drink on the counter? At least not the one I go to... I don't know, maybe the smaller stores discontinued them or something... We used to put cinnamon in our Frappuccinos in college.

Just a random thought but thats what this blog is for!!

Jerk...

2005-05-16T08:40:00.000-05:00

You asshole! What is your fucking problem?! Why are you the way you are? You drive me up the fucking wall!!! I'll never ever ever understand you. If you hate me so fucking much then why do you bother? Why do you talk to me or want to see me or have anything to do with me? Why did you ever say that you loved me? Yeah, right. If you ever did, then why do you act like you fucking hate me so much? Can't you just be normal and be my friend and be happy for me and TRY and be happy with yourself? Is that it? Are you just not happy with yourself? You had your chance... What more can I say about it? There IS nothing more I can say about it!! I don't know what it is with you. Are you trying to bring me down to your level? Make me feel the same miserable existance you seem to be living. You act like you have it all so why don't you just take it all and be happy and just move the fuck on?! I almost can't stand it anymore. No, I CAN'T stand it anymore. I have wasted too much time thinking about you and lamenting over "what might have been". What a big fucking waste. And now? I just don't know. The part of me that still thinks you care wants to believe you're just scared that you've fucked up and lost me for good. Well, you probably have, what more can I say? I don't know what else to say and do. Sadly, we've probably just reached the point where its time to go our separate ways and just say goodbye. I don't want to think that thats the case but it probably is. Just go and leave me alone.

Oh my GOD - they are serious!!

2005-05-13T14:22:00.000-05:00

BushFish

Ouchy...

2005-05-13T14:17:00.000-05:00

Yeah so where I work most of my coworkers are pretty liberal, politically speaking. People will send around emails or whatever department-wide which definitely allude to this. Most of the time a few of us will chime in on the thread and have a nice little laugh about it. Today, however, was a different matter.

Someone ... and I'm not exactly sure who ... sent around an email mocking a certain conservative organization (and I'm not going to get into who this organization is but suffice it to say that I can't stand them myself even though my grandfather *cough* *gag* *vomit* is either a member of or some kind of outside honorary member of this organization). It was a anonymous email because we can change the From: fields in our email to submit issues to management or whatever if need be.

Anyway, this thing came across and I got a huge kick out of it because like I said, can't stand them. It was also sort of funny and I had a little chuckle about it.

Like I said, these things are usually no big deal but this time I guess it was different. My boss sent around an email asking us to delete it and delete it from our Inboxes, etc. She seems pissed off and my guess is that someone is potentially in big trouble. Yikes! I can see where she's coming from though. Although the original email address of the organization was taken off of the email, they left the @xxxx.org as well as mentioning the organization outright. It would look HORRIBLE for something like that to get out with our "From" on it. And the potential is there because I see where this person actually CC'd it to two former employees including our former group VP.

Stupid stupid stupid...

Welcome to the dark side...

2005-05-12T22:54:00.000-05:00

From my friend Steve tonight at the Sox game:

"They are good. This isn't like watching the Cubs at all."

LOL! Love it!

Zellweger-Chesney

2005-05-12T10:25:00.000-05:00

I like this couple!

Sweating the small stuff ... or not...

2005-05-11T11:10:00.000-05:00

When someone you love does something that is not necessarily bad but you feel is wrong and goes against your beliefs... and they know your beliefs ... what do you do about it? Do you take up the issue with them or just let it slide?

What if you're really bothered by it? What if the person tells you that they will never do this thing again? Should you just believe them and let it go, knowing that they might not necessarily be telling you the *exact* truth?

Is it worth duking it out over something that in the general scheme of things doesn't matter all that much? Won't that cause more harm than good?

U.S. "Nationalism" or lackthereof, thank god...

2005-05-10T10:54:00.000-05:00

Just more proof that we have absolutely noooo imagination and we're destined to do the same things over and over and over. Reading this book, which is a pretty good straightforward telling of the role of the National Women's Party in the fight for women's suffrage in America: "From Equal Suffrage to Equal Rights: Alice Paul and the National Women's Party, 1910-1928" by Christine Lunardini...

Does this sound familiar? And this is World War I !! ( p. 125)

"The war, of course, played a crucial part in developments. In order to win total support for the war, the administration instituted the policy of "100% Americanism" -- a policy that succeeded so well that both foolish and threatening actions were taken as a consequence. Sauerkraut, for example, was renamed Liberty cabbage, and German measles were henceforth called Liberty measles."

And in the FOXNEWS of the day, also about the war... (also p. 125)

"A perception developed among many people -- promoted in good measure by some of the press coverage, in addition to the attitude struck by government authorities -- that any dissent bordered on treason, regardless of ideology or cause."

But I guess we can blame the Democrats for that one back then ...

Isn't it weird ...

2005-05-09T16:49:00.000-05:00

When you're grown up enough to be secure in your relationships? At least I think its weird.

I'm in a relationship now - my first relationship ever - where I honestly know that I'm going to hear from, if not see the person, every single day. And I'm also secure in knowing that he's not going to randomly bail on me for no reason at all. This alone is weird because I was with my ex for six years and lived with him and I honestly felt the entire time that he could randomly bail at any point. Perhaps that was because I was only 23 when it started and still sort of in that "kid"-mode. Know what I mean? There's something seriously different in starting something when you actually are a grownup.

Oddly enough, in my prior relationship, I was the one who ended up randomly bailing ; )

Beginning again

2005-05-09T16:47:00.000-05:00

I will keep this private for now but my blog is back! I missed it! However this will be much much much more simple than before. Just short daily thoughts from me. Feel free to stop by and leave comments.

ENJOY!